Play SOMA, they said. It’s full of interesting existential drama, they said.
And wouldn’t you know it, underneath all the goopy blobs of decaying flesh, that is exactly what I found.
I Always Feel Like SOMA is Watching Me…
Released in 2015, SOMA is a survival horror game developed by Frictional Games, the same folks who brought gamers Amnesia: The Dark Descent, which is another fine horror game that I have steered clear of, but by all accounts is an A+ game that horror fans should definitely check out. With a focus on tight narrative, SOMA packs a lot into its 11 hour punch, focusing on evasion of frightening monsters and slowly unfolding the existential horror of the reality behind main character Simon Jarrett’s existence.
I had reservations about playing this game. For those of you who have been around for a while, you know that I was convinced to play the Prey demo by Shelby over at Falcon Game Reviews and upon booting up the game was torn between being scared and feeling like my head was being squeezed and like I was going to vomit from first-person sickness. So, when promised a really great, philosophical time within the confines of a first-person horror game, I admit that my curiosity was stymied quite a bit.
Then, a few years after its release, I heard that SOMA was given a story mode – with much wailing and gnashing of teeth from core horror fans – that would allow players to experience the story without the main character really ever being in danger from the creepy things. This was not really defined well by the game, as we’ll talk about below the spoilers warning, but still quite a relief to people like me who play games for the story and with wildly active imaginations that definitely don’t need more nightmare fuel.
I still put the game off, feeling guilty when I remembered how enthusiastically The Shameful Narcissist recommended the game to me. Then, another friend asked if I had played SOMA, because it had a story mode, and finally I caved to peer pressure when Kim from Later Levels said that she really thought I would enjoy the themes in it. And so I grabbed my teddy bear and decided to stream it, to minimize having to be alone while playing.
And now here we are. So, without further ado, let’s take a look at the very real questions raised by SOMA about identity, consciousness, and the continuation of each across existence.
…Now Here’s Some Philosophy
SOMA starts out, I imagine, as many a survival horror game do (at least, to judge from my experience with the Prey demo, with our protagonist, Simon Jarret, waking up in his apartment and playing with the physics engine finding out he has an important doctor’s appointment, and reading all the documents in his house to orient him to time and place. As one does when they wake in the morning.
We learn via a dream sequence that his girlfriend died in a tragic car accident, with Simon bemoaning he doesn’t have more time as he slowly regains consciousness to his alarm clock blaring in his ear. From there, we move around the apartment, check to see if we have feet (spoiler: we don’t), and then we’re off to the doctor for a brain scan, in order for a highly technological solution to be designed for Simon’s brain damage, resulting from the aforementioned car accident.
We sit for the brain scan and…
Spoilers below. Huge, huge plot spoilers are incoming. Nothing else about this post will make sense without them, so if you would prefer to experience the story for yourself first (and I do recommend it), now is the time to bookmark this page, play the game, and come back.
We wake up, as Simon, in this horrifyingly dystopian future, in an underwater facility that has been abandoned by all except the creepiest of fleshy monsters that lumber through the halls, sometimes moaning in pain or “looping” conversational phrases, but otherwise existing to chase Simon around and, apparently, raise my blood pressure.
In story mode, the danger from these creatures is reduced; they can hurt Simon, but not kill him, although this is not ever really stated, and the way this “not harming” is implemented is not consistent, with some enemies chasing after Simon and acting in the way they normally would, but with less/no damage, or sometimes backing away if Simon approaches them, or some strange combination of the two. This led to some interesting moments, when I assumed that the monster wouldn’t attack me, and so I stood facing away from the monster that was very obviously behind me, until it hit me over the head and disappeared.
It also resulted in a few unintentionally funny moments, like when a creature that the internet touted as “the hardest baddie in the game” simply stood aside and politely waited for me to walk through a door, wandering behind me and generally acting more like a puppy than a fearsome creature that should make me fear for my life.
One thing that this did well, however, is keep the player wrong-footed while still feeling “safe.” The monsters couldn’t kill Simon, but I never really knew what we were getting ourselves into from monster encounter to monster encounter.
Through the course of the game, we control four separate Simons. Simon 1 is the one at the very beginning, the one who goes to the doctor. After the scan door is opened and we find ourselves in some strange underwater post-apocalyptic dystopia, we find ourselves being followed by various spooks and horrors until we learn that we are, in fact, a human consciousness put into a robot body – Simon 2.
Eventually, Simon 2 makes another copy of himself – Simon 3 – and, horrifically at the end of the game, Simon 3 makes another copy – Simon 4.
It’s during the copying of Simon 2 that the game throws its first big punch: Simon 1 didn’t “body jump” into the robot body, and Simon 2 didn’t “body jump” into the new robot body needed to progress the story. No, we learn that Simon 1 – human Simon – died 100 years ago, and Simon 2 is now sitting in another room, heavily sedated but still with a separate consciousness to Simon 3, wondering why “it didn’t work.” Simon 3, meanwhile, has experienced no hiccup in his awareness of the world. To him, he is now simply in another body. He is then faced with the impossible question of whether to kill Simon 2 or to leave him in a perpetual “stand by” state of being until his batteries slowly run out in the coming eons.
This decision comes back to haunt us at the end of the game when Catherine – another human consciousness in a robotic form who has been gently guiding us through the game – convinces Simon 3 to “copy” them onto an ARK that is meant to preserve the digitized consciousness of a lucky number of humans for 1,000 years. Simon 3 does so, imagining he will simply make the jump to the ARK, the same way “he” did from Simon 2. When he finds himself still sitting on the chair, Catherine – who has not been above lying by omission throughout the game – tells him that they “lost the coin toss,” and that it is, in fact, Simon 4 and Catherine 3 who are on the ARK, while she and Simon 3 have been left behind.
Meanwhile, on the ARK, Simon 4 is blissfully unaware of the fate of Simon 3, believing he is the exact same consciousness that made the “jump” from Simon 2, then to 3, and now to here.
Taking a Breath
There’s a lot to unpack in this game, and we haven’t even gotten to the steps taken to “preserve” humanity, death, and the absence of consciousness, which will be tackled in a different post.
Last time, I posed a number of questions that I was left with after the first few hours of gameplay. A few of them were wrapped up simply by exploring the game (like “what happened to all the human bodies?” and “Why were the dead bodies needed to create robots like Simon?”), but some of them were not so much answered as explored. These questions all had to do with the nature of consciousness, and the so-called “coin toss” that Catherine kept telling us about.
So, what is consciousness? What is awareness? Can our “analogue” system (the brain) be truly reproduced digitally? What is reality itself (spoiler: it’s made up, as we discovered here)?
In the simplest of terms, consciousness is awareness. It is an awareness of one’s self, thoughts, feelings, physical sensations, and environment.
Using this broad term, there are a great many things that can be deemed conscious, from some non-human animals to the complex self-aware AI that we often come across in video games. These would be your EDIs from Mass Effect 2 and 3, or the androids from Detroit: Become Human.
Sometimes, in the case of robots/androids in games and other sci-fi situations, the one tripping point is having feelings, but it’s possible that being aware of not having feelings is, in itself, an indication of an awareness or a consciousness of feelings, thus satisfying this requirement.
Another potential block is an awareness of “self.” What is “self” and how do we know we are aware of it? Is it a soul, that detail of existence that can’t be seen, heard, touched, or experienced, other than in some nebulous concept that only people of faith believe even exists? Or is it something else? What makes you you?
If you want to spiral into existential crisis, ask yourself how you know that you are, in fact, yourself, and not a copy of yourself, or a program of yourself.
Me, Myself, and I
It is this last part that the game explores: can there be more than one you in existence at a time? If there is biological you, and then a robot copy of you that has all your memories, mannerisms, hopes, desires, and awareness, which one is you? Both? Neither? Only one, by nature of it being biological? When Simon 2 and Simon 3 exist at the same time, it is handled by either “unplugging” Simon 2, or leaving him in this unconscious state for however long it takes for his batteries to run out of charge.
When scientists learn that they have been copied into robots, many responded by “fixing” the problem through eliminating their biological self, believing that their consciousness would continue/jump into the robot.
Unfortunately, this isn’t even reality within the game world. Consciousness doesn’t “jump” from one body to the next. The biological person dies, and a digital version of them – a carbon copy, if you will – lives on. But the original consciousness, the original mind, the original person, has been deleted. It is analogous to copying a Word document, naming in Document 2.0, then deleting the first one. All the same information is there on Document 2.0, but it’s not – and never can be – the original document.
But which one is the “real” copy?
Well, let’s ask Simon.
Fabricating the New You
We have two main concepts at play now: awareness/consciousness, and memories. We’ve talked about consciousness; now let’s talk a bit about memories, a topic we’ve discussed tangentially throughout this blog’s history. In this instance, however, the aspect I want to focus on is that memories are part of what make us us and not someone else.
Our memories include information that we’ve learned, sensations we’ve felt, thoughts we’ve had, and all manner of other stored tidbits of things that have happened to us in the past. We like to say that our pasts shape our present, and our memories/recollections/interpretations of our pasts even moreso.
But what happens when those memories are put into a being that experiences the memories the same way you do? And what happens when that person is aware of themselves as a being, separate but yet the same as you.
Enter the Simons. Simon 1, biological Simon, is the original Simon. His brain is scanned, his mind digitized, and then his biological body dies. Simon 2 awakes with all of Simon 1’s memories up until the scan. This is important later. Simon 2 is, eventually, shut off by Simon 3, who has all of Simon 1 and 2’s memories.
What is interesting is that we, the player, jump from Simon 1, to Simon 2, to Simon 3. To us, this is one continuation of consciousness. Of course Simon 3 is the real Simon, or at least the real robot Simon, because we are in his head. Of course consciousness jumps from one being to another; we the player have just experienced that. To us, the “coin flip” that Catherine speaks of is real. It happens. We lived it. That’s important later.
Simon 3’s final task is to launch the ARK, and Catherine, his intrepid and only companion who we blink in and out of existence with the flip of a switch, promises that we, Simon 3, have a chance at being transferred, via the mysterious “coin toss” that is mentioned at points throughout the game. After much pain and suffering, he does – and I admit as the player, I was glad. I was rooting for Simon 3 to wind up on the ARK and be free of his pain and be given a new body.
But then, as we found out, something goes wrong. Simon 3 is left strapped to his chair and Catherine is blinked out of existence by a critical failure. It didn’t work. Simon didn’t make it. He and Catherine lost the coin toss.
Except he also won the coin toss. Simon 4 arrives on the ARK, with all the memories of Simon 1, 2, and 3, up until the flipped switch, blissfully unaware that he is a copy, and that he left another copy of himself behind, just like Simon 3 did to Simon 2.
If you asked Simon 4, he would say he was Simon. Of course he was. He had all the memories. He had awareness of who he was. He had consciousness, as per our definition above. He has no memory of being “left behind,” so according to his memories, his consciousness made the jump to the ARK.
If you asked Simon 3, he would say he was Simon. Of course he was. He had all the memories. He had awareness of who he was. He had consciousness, as per our definition above. His experience tells him that he made a copy of himself, and the copy made it onto the ARK. But not him. He’s still on Earth.
But he’s also on the ARK.
Maybe the bottom line is that we fabricate our own realities, but we just never have to face it in how we live our lives.
What Does It Mean?
Ignoring the absolute thick-headedness that Simon demonstrates regarding his understanding of “jumping of consciousness” – possibly in an attempt to validate the experience of the player that we talked about above – we are left with a few unanswered questions.
After all, every Simon demonstrated consciousness. Every Simon “had” history that he remembered. So I ask:
- What are we, if not the product of our pasts? To say a different way, what are we, if not standing on the steps of our memories?
- Are we still “us,” even if our memories are fabricated? even if they have been experienced by another being, then implanted?
Perhaps in the end, it’s futile to copy ourselves and expect our consciousness to “jump” from one body to another. A copy exists in its own right, after all. So then, at what point would our copy cease to be “us” and start being their own person?
If you’re a fan of survival horror, and want to spend some time thinking about what it means to be human, SOMA is the game for you. I barely scratched the surface with the discussions that could be had surrounding this game, because it’s so very human. How would one react to finding out there is “another you” that you created? What did the WAU (which we didn’t even talk about here) decide is “humanity” that needs to be preserved? Is knowing a digital version of yourself will exist beyond you comforting to you?
The story pulled me in, and by the end I was rooting for Simon 3. I was stressing out, watching the technology glitch as the “upload” bar slowly – too slowly – filled, thinking, “He’s not going to make it. After everything we’ve done…” Only for my heart to break when we came to the ending that I hoped against – but still somehow expected. So in that regard, it did it’s job.
As far as a horror game itself goes, I have little to compare it to, but I was sufficiently creeped out the entire time. I had the usual first-person headache and nausea at times, but I had enough to focus on that I could ignore it for the most part. It’s a game that can pave the way for a lot of deep discussions, and that alone is enough for me to recommend it!
Have you played SOMA? What did you think? Let me know in the comments!
Thanks for stopping by, and I’ll see you soon!
Do you like what you’ve read? Become a revered Aegis of AmbiGaming and show your support for small creators and for video games as a serious, viable, and relevant medium!
Awesome! Just realised my understanding of this barely scratched the surface, and you’ve helped deepen it tremendously! Thank you!
I believe a copy of ones self would no longer be a copy the exact moment it was activated as I agree that we are a product of our memories. Those memories are the continued moment to moment, second by second, experiences. I guess the only way for fabricated copies to remain in sync is for the entire world around them to be in sync too, as that’s the unavoidable external influence on what makes us “us”?
Perhaps the human mind is simply a reaction machine built to learn and adapt from the sensory input, what it does with that information however is truly astounding and baffles me.
I know zip-all about philosophy though but plenty about computers which makes SOMA the perfect crossover! Really enjoyed the game and your post!
LikeLiked by 1 person
I’m glad you enjoyed the article, and am flattered it gave you some more to think about 🙂
That’s a good point, that we are part of our memories, so there would be only perhaps one moment where 1a and 1b are The Same before diverging. What an interesting thought about controlling the environment! I suppose that would keep them the same, as their memories could – in theory – inspire 1a and 1b to act the same way. Now I have more to think about, too….
The brain is definitely built to learn and adapt to its environment from its input, and when one thinks that the brain itself doesn’t experience the world, but rather interprets sensory information in order to make “us” experience our multisensory reality, it really is quite amazing.
I’m so glad you enjoyed (both the game and the article)!
I enjoy your style of breaking down the games into themes outside of actual game play. its good to come away feeling a little educated as well as gaining a new perspective on a new game. I will admit i can’t always keep up but still interesting reading. Also, appreciate a good pun.
LikeLiked by 1 person
Thank you! I enjoy relating game worlds to physical world concepts, so if you think about game or life a little differently, then I’m immensely glad!
Oh! Well if there is ever something I’m not clear about, or haven’t explained well enough, please let me know! I get into some wild details sometimes and want to be sure it’s all coming across in a good way!
And thank you, puns are great 🙂
Soma is a great game, and I need to revisit it soon, since I always wanted to write more posts about it.
However, I have to disagree with a few points here. Oh, one thing before we start: I have been told that whenever I try to discuss something I can come across as attacking a post. I do not think this is the case here, but just to be sure, I wanted to say that my intention here is not to criticise your post, but that I enjoyed reading it and cared enough about it to sit down, collect my thoughts, and to share my own views and opinions on the topic. Alright, with that out of the way, here we go:
1) Simon 3 does not have the memories of Simon 1 and 2, he only has 2’s memories. Simon 1 lived after the brain scan, and none of those memories are available to any of the other Simons. Yes, the distinction is a bit nitpicky, and I think you meant that he had 1’s memories up to the point of the brain scan. Still, I think it would be better to think of it as having only the memories of S2, and none of S1, as will become clearer in my other points.
2) If I remember correctly, the different Simons do not only inherit the previous incarnations’ memory, but Simon’s complete original brain gets digitally recreated. For gameplay purposes (and most narrative ones) it is mostly about the memories, but I think this makes a big difference. Simon 2 originally thinks that he is still Simon 1. He believes that he still breathes, smells, uses his (own) muscles etc. His digital brain still sends out the necessary signals to his body, even if he’s physically incapable of doing those things any longer.
Also, I think it’s safe to say that even if the game specifies the “brain scan”, it means that basically anything that defines a person’s identity (whatever that may be…nervous system, muscle memory, DNA, etc) is stored and transferred.
3) As far as I know, the most common (theoretical, of course) interpretation is that if you’d clone someone (in this case, not the whole body, but your “identity”), for a split-second, those clones would be literally the same. From the second moment onwards, though, they become separate entities, since they start getting different “inputs”.
There is no original and a clone, but two originals that develop in different directions. So, there’s no Person 1 and Person 2, but a Person 1.x and Person 1.y.
In this case, there very much is an original Simon, as not his entire body is cloned, but “only” his identity. Still, I’d make a distinction between “real” and “original”. In my own post, I use the Theseus’ ship thought experiment as an analogy (although i only mentioned it briefly, since I tried to cover too many topics at once).
4) The fact that we control Simon 3 does not make him the “real” one. At least, he’s not more “real” than the other Simons. All of them are “the real Simon”. We only get to control the “most important” version of Simon every time because it makes the most sense within the context of Soma being a video game. If we’re to spin philosophical theories (which we are, yayy!), this has no merit here. In “reality”, we could have been stuck in Simon 2’s body, be killed, and the game was over. Would be a dumb ending for a game, but for SImon 2, that was the end.
5) To finally get to the two questions: We basically are just products of our past. If I’m not mistaken, it is possible to register a decision we will make before we consciously make it. But it’s not just our memories that shape us, it’s the past in its entirety. As my cousin once put it: “My whole identity is based on two monkey deciding to have sex thousands of years ago.” It’s a joke, of course, but it has some merit to it.
I have pretty much answered the second question already. Since it was not just the memories, but Simon’s identity that was copied, I’d say it is still “him”.
Of course, a lot of what I just said is simply my opinion. I tried to base it on objective arguments, but I don’t claim any of it to be the absolute truth.
LikeLiked by 1 person
Long comments are always welcome! I understand. Sometimes discussing details, or having a different opinion, can come across in an argumentative manner, but I wholeheartedly support discussion, so your thoughts are always welcome!
1. Yes, I should have been clearer. I meant Simon 1’s memories as far as the scan went, and were then uploaded into Simon 2.
2. The game definitely focuses on the memories/personality aspect of the scan. In the game, I think it’s Catherine who tells him that the scan-brains were meant to make it seem like he really was still experiencing the same sensory input he had from his body. To go without would drive him insane, so it was a combination of processing and (the brain’s) willful ignorance that kept up the façade of continuity.
Regarding personality, I think an interesting conversation could be had about what makes a person “them”/what makes their personality. It could be a combination of brain structure, brain chemistry, and memories all working together to create the cohesive whole as a person. At the very least, his memories and the “way” his brain processes information must have been digitized and transferred, for sure.
3. Yes, I’d agree about person 1a and 1b. In theory, though, each iteration of Simon could be their own individual after each transfer. The one I called Simon 2 would go on and live a different life than the one I called Simon 3, the same as if Simon 2 called himself “Simon” and Simon 3 decided to go by the name Thomas. They would share a common history, but would ultimately develop into two separate “people,” like you said.
The “real” versus “original” question also relates to this. I wonder if it would be different if they had different names? Obviously all the iterations are “real” insofar as they exist in time and space (i.e., they are not imaginary). But, I suppose that’s the question, isn’t it? Is a digital version just “as real” as a biological version? Or is it “just” a copy? A valid copy, but a copy nonetheless.
4. True. We could have died with Simon 1, too haha. I think what’s so compelling about the player “jumping” from body to body is that the player *experiences* the so-called “winning the coin toss” that we hear about. So, the lived experience of the player is that “the real Simon” (aka the one we control) *does* jump from body to body. I agree that in an objectively real sense, our controlling of him doesn’t make him more real, for sure.
5. Very good thoughts! Thank you for sharing them 🙂
I’m glad you shared your ideas! That’s the joy of blogging for me, honestly: getting to discuss games like this with other people, so I appreciate you weighing in!!
2. What I find funny: I think that Soma tried to pose the question if machines and AIs can have real personalities of their own, or if we should see them simply as a convolution of advanced subroutines without emotions, “real” thoughts, and personality. However, Simon’s brain scan is not an AI. It is not a simulation of his brain. It is a full-blown copy of it. Anything he does in his machine-bodies, he does not because he was programmed, but because it is what he would have done as a human. All his decisions and thought processes are effectively human.
Of course, it is debatable if it is still a “real” human personality, but it’s definitely not just an AI. The discussion probably could be even more extensive, not just covering personality, but about what makes humans human. Sure, in some ways, Simon no longer is human (in the sense of a human simply being an ape-like mammal), but in many other ways he still is himself. As said before, he’s not a robot programmed to think that he’s Simon. Would it be different if his actual brain had been transplanted into another living body? Naturally, this is just regarding narrative/philosophical purposes, the question what scientifically is part of oneself (if that can even be answered) is on a whole other level…
3. Does it even matter if it is a copy? At which point does a copy become an original of its own? Theoretically, all of us are just “copies” of our parents’s DNA, but still we’d be inclined to say we’re “original” humans. This discussion does not only have to take place on such a high-brow topic, though. I “struggle” with this a lot whenever I experiment with drinks. At which point do I have created something new, with an identity of its own? Take, for example, the Manhattan. (American) Whiskey, Italian vermouth and Bitters. Now, the Rob Roy is widely regarded as its own drink. However, you basically swap out whiskey with whisky, Scotch instead of Bourbon/Rye.
4. But does a “body jump” even occur? The player jumps from body to body, yes. For the newly created copy it feels like a jump, true. But there is no actual jump. Every time Simon gets copied, he does not jump, but a new entity of him is created. The “new” Simon only think he jumped because in the first few moments of his existence, both Simons’ are the same (as I mentioned in my first reply). Then he realises he’s somewhere else, and concludes that his mind must have jumped bodies (which the player recognises as “true”, since the player actually DID swap bodies). But the “original” Simon only sits down, gets his brain scanned, and…well, gets killed. Bummer.
LikeLiked by 1 person
Soma did a really excellent job of raising these points, of exploring this idea of copied conciousnesses, and breaking down the idea of a continuing self. The ending was really clear and predictable, with Catherine basically explaining how things worked in encounters prior to it, and yet Simon never picked up on it which gave it a really nice degree of dramatic irony throughout.
LikeLiked by 1 person
Yes I was really impressed with how they explored these ideas. That’s interesting what you say about Catherine and Simon, though. I found myself aggravated at his understanding of what was going on, but then again Catherine explains what’s going on AND lies to him (about the “coin toss” thing), but you’re right that it did add to the dramatic irony (and, like I said, I *knew* there was no “coin toss” and I still wanted that for our poor Simon).
LikeLiked by 1 person
It’s the transporter problem explored in horrifying detail taking the side of the transporter kills then copies you. I have never been more disturbed by any story like I have with SOMA (arguably there are things in FFVII that trigger me more, but a lot of that is for personal reasons), and it didn’t it so perfectly. The mark of good foreshadowing is when you can absolutely see where it was pointing you in the right direction, but you don’t realize it until it happens. The game literally hits you over the head with it but with enough misdirection that you forget. Plus you identify so much with Simon that you almost let yourself forget, but then the end happens and it’s gutting.
LikeLiked by 1 person
Exactly! There are so many details and strange things to keep track of that it’s easy to wonder where the story is going, even though it’s literally telling you the entire time. Like I said, I knew Simon 3 wasn’t making it onto the ARK, and yet I was still hoping for some weird random thing to make it happen.
And I remember you talking about the transporter problem before, which I’ve had a lot of fun thinking about. It reminds me of Thesseus’s ship – if you replace all the insides of an old ship and make it new, is it still the same ship as before? Things like that fascinate me to think about. But you’re right, that in SOMA the other copies are killed – at least, Simon 2 can be killed, and some of the humans decide that there can’t be two “of them” existing at the same time… That was a grim detail that I almost wish they had explained further, because it doesn’t seem like anyone ever told the humans this was the case, nor why they would think that a computer copy of themselves was exactly the same as them.
Hoo boy, I should stop there before I ramble out an entire post here again… You’ve got me thinking about this a little differently now, and I love it!
LikeLiked by 1 person
I was completely blindsided by the end, but delightfully so hehe. The story absorbed me so much that I didn’t think about that detail until it happened.
I find the ship of Theseus fascinating as well, and I honestly don’t have an answer, but I don’t think the answer is important; it’s the “journey” per se.
It was almost like the other humans created a religion around the ARK, which makes symbolic sense considering what it was called. They thought if they killed themselves their consciousness would transfer and the idea that there couldn’t be two of their consciousnesses is a type of cognitive dissonance born out of humans’ need to feel like individuals. SOMA strips so much of that away in asking what it even means to be human and conscious. Catherine is a great example especially when Simon asks her what it’s like when she’s “turned off,” and she says it’s like she just winks back into consciousness. There’s a…sort of nihilism about SOMA that I want to explore, but it’s a hopeful sort not cynical. You definitely get that idea of “the universe doesn’t care about us” scale.
Yeah lol. I could talk about this A LOT.
LikeLiked by 1 person
That makes sense, about the religion feeling that surrounds the ARK. That would definitely explain a lot of the… not-scientific things people believed about it, considering they were all science team members (or adjacent). I really liked Catherine’s example… having been under anesthesia, that’s the feeling I always had: blinking in and out of existence. It is strange to think of one’s entire experience being like that, though. Also strange to think about what really being “offline” might be like….
So many things to talk about…. haha
LikeLiked by 1 person
Anesthesia is a great example of it. I’ve been under it twice, and it’s literally like you’re there, then you’re elsewhere. It’s…disorienting when I think about it, because it could be hours, days or even longer. Like they literally turn your consciousness off o.O
LikeLiked by 1 person